So much has changed.
Nine months ago, I made a choice.
Enough was enough.
I needed a change.
I wanted my life back.
I needed to breathe again.
He needed the same thing.
& There was not a single day that I found myself regretting that choice.
Eight months ago, another decision had to be made.
I found out I was carrying another child.
Under the worst situation, I had to consider abortion.
It's hard to admit but I don't have anything against it.
Situations are situations and one can only decide what's best for themselves.
Thing was, I couldn't.
I did not have the heart or strength to go through it.
I knew, however, that no matter what happens, I have people I can count on to help me raise another child like my first. I didn't have to go through it alone.
As hard as it was, I knew this was another decision I wouldn't regret.
1 month to go, yet more decisions to make.
Things have only started getting better, or more like, I am.
I dont know if I'm ready to go back to what I've left.
I don't know if I'm ready to have him back in my life.
For years, it was always about taking chances with him.
I don't know if I can take another shot at this.
Although still "legally" married, it has been tooo long.